I’m fine; I’ve just been being quiet.
One problem is the untimely death of my desktop computer’s power supply. It took with it my partition containing my email archive and other things. I have decided to start using my gaming system as a short-term solution that may last the remainder of my life. We’ll see. I used to love building computers (my first build was a NEC V-20 CPU – based PC with a Hercules 640×480 monochrome graphics card, a whopping 64K of memory, dual floppies, and a 10mb hard drive, in 198?6) but I have noticed component prices, which were low when I built my gaming machine, are now high, and I just haven’t felt like getting into the whole process again. I’ll be retrieving my various credentials and using my gaming system for some things. It is unbearable to write anything extensive on an iPhone or iPad.
I got sucked into a real mistake that ate a few weeks: I decided to make a dagger with perfect flat bevels. I spent 6 straight days at my polishing bench with sandpaper locked over a granite surface plate, making the flats flat and then shiny. They’re dead flat now and the edge is scary. Eventually I will make a guard and handle/scabbard for it, but I’m not in a hurry. I also started shaping the osoraku dagger similarly but I can’t seem to properly shape a yokote (the line down the transition zone at the tip) so I’ve got it wrapped in butchers’ paper for a long nap. My mental state is fragile and I am subliminally preparing for war – I think that making man-killer blades is probably not a good health indicator.
The truth is, I realized that I can take or leave blogging, and probably should leave. But not yet. My realization was that: 1) I hate Twitter and Facebook because it’s just a bunch of argumentative asswipes 2) It is possible that Freethoughtblogs is also just a bunch of argumentative asswipes 3) It is possible that I am an argumentative asswipe 4) I don’t want to be part of that 5) I may not want to be part of myself, for that matter. So I have scaled back on controversy because I also realized that I have been a participant on many of the worst aspects of social media. I guess I have been becoming a self-hating blogger. (?) Now, I see many of the commentariat over at Pharyngula as argumentative asswipes who I don’t want to have to engage with, which is a bit of a problem because it means cancelling some of my own commentariat(tm) over here.
Yet, there are many things I want to talk about. The problem is that they do not survive the challenge of my new litmus test (“is this just social media shit?”) and I’m increasingly shying away from politics because it has become the great well of toxicity in so many of our lives and I’m now reluctant to be part of that. I don’t want to just be posting recipes or pictures of food or sharp things. But maybe that is where I am headed. That said, I will try to get some pictures to this system so I can post a few pictures of some stabby things.
My doctor asked me the other day about family history of dementia. That’s not a happy question in any circumstance but it made me realize that pretty much every one of my ancestors on both parental branches died of dementia or was at least heading that way before a heart attack or stroke took them off. Now I’m looking over my shoulder and jumping at sounds in the bushes. Speaking of bushes, the fall colors are in, here and I’ve been taking long walks every day in spite of it’s being hunting season. So far I have not been blasted. It’s really beautiful out here.
Re-activating all my internet tubes is going to require a lot of email authentication and password resets (I have something like 10 wordpress accounts and 30 hosting accounts to reset…) so I’m dedicating my morning to that bullshit. [Update: succeeded!]
Because of my brilliant security system, scattering my credentials across devices and dividing them by purpose, losing “the machine I do my email, blogging, and web stuff on” means all those credentials are gone and are not present on – say – my iPhone. So recovering things is non-trivial. Thank goodness I can still get to my email! Always have 2 systems that can access your email! My credentials are so secured that even I, a formerly notable penetration tester, have trouble getting to my own stuff at the best of times.