This’ll be a short one…
It’s funny… Back when I got into Doctor Who, Matt Smith was at the height of his tenure as the Doctor (or the nadir, depending on how you view it). While watching new episodes, I binged the entirety of Doctor Who from it’s return in2005 through. I watched both of Eccleston’s and Tennant’s regenerations, and they were sad, but they didn’t hit me.
Matt Smith’s regeneration into Peter Capaldi was the first regeneration I saw live. And yes, it was also sad, but, while I liked Smith (mostly), he wasn’t my Doctor.
After binging the 2005 return, and between breaks and such in the live run, I went back and started watching the classic episodes. William Hartnell actually turned out to be my favorite Doctor, so when Capaldi took over, I warmed to him immediately. Granted, he had both some of the best and some of the worst stories in NuWho, and he started out quite mean and grumpy, but he was everything I loved about Hartnell’s Doctor, even with the warming up over time to become… well… kind.
I very much hoped that Capaldi would become the new Tom Baker. Maybe not overstaying, but staying on for more than three seasons. And when Bill was introduced in Season 10, I had hoped that she’d be his companion for most of his run…
Until it was announced that Season 10 was not only going to be Capaldi’s last, but the entire team’s last. Then it was announced that Chris Chibnall was taking over. And then, it was announced that Jodie Whittaker would be the first woman in the show’s 54-year run to be the new Doctor.
Twice Upon a Time, the 2017 Christmas special, was Capaldi’s regeneration episode. And I finally understood what fans meant by “it’s both devastating and exciting”.
I was so ecstatic for Whittaker, but I didn’t want Capaldi to go, either. And I experienced that split between being devastated and being excited for Twice Upon a Time. They brought in David Bradley to play the First Doctor, and aside from an annoying amount of rather misplaced sexism (the First Doctor was simply never that sexist… racist, a few times, yes, but not that sexist), he did quite an excellent job at it. Bill was brought back, as well. And I’d say more, but… you know… spoilers…
One thing Capaldi did well was monologues. I will never understand how he didn’t win any awards for Heaven Sent. That was a brilliant piece of Doctor Who, and the vast majority of it was Capaldi literally acting against no one. So, of course, his final speech in Twice Upon a Time was great. Yes, it was a pastiche of things he’d said in the past (including bits from Heaven Sent), and on paper it looked… anti-climactic. But Capaldi, as usual, pulled it off wonderfully, making it an emotional farewell.
And I cried.
And he regenerated.
And then I didn’t know whether to keep crying or to stop crying and be excited.
Twice Upon a Time ended on a rather ridiculous (in a good way) cliffhanger, leaving me feeling like the wait for Season 11, and Whittaker’s first season, is going to be far too long.
Goodbye, Peter Capaldi. You were my Doctor. You were everything I felt the Doctor was, and then some. Your acting was brilliant. And I do hope we get to see you back for a multi-Doctor story in the near future.
And hello, Jodie Whittaker. I cannot express in words how excited I am to follow your tenure as the Doctor. I have a feeling that you really are going to be brilliant, and I cannot wait for it to start.
(Separately… I know I’ve been absent. This blog has gotten rather dusty. I obviously still have a post I’ve been promising… and no, I haven’t actually hit my personal due date, yet… but it was pushed back somewhat with the death of my grandpa. And no, it will not be as long, as well-written, or as well-researched as the time I’ve been spending on it might justify, sadly. I have no excuse for that at all.
Plus I have series I want to get back into, as well, obviously.
My absence is down to a lot. There’s been so much going on in my life. So much stress and anxiety, so much work, confusion about my future, etc. I’m going day-by-day right now, and am trying to figure out what my future holds. I may blog about a rather terrifying night I had recently, or I may not. We’ll see. Nobody was harmed [including me], and it only involved myself and no one else… but anyways…
I’ll see you all soon.