Though Pepe’s meme is usually in the hands of hate criminals, in hateless incarnations, I can dig. Here we see the sad Pepe in a very brief animation.
I had this foolish schedule with only an eight hour gap between two eight hour shifts, and rather than monkey with buses to get ten minutes of sleep at home, thought I’d be clever and sleep in the break room. I barely slept and ended up super sweaty and vile. I felt so gross it killed me. Plus just working that shift wrecked me even worse than the job usually does.
I’m in this state that is hardly a relief from the quasi-depression I’d gotten into from long underemployment. I put myself through pain and stress all day for a reward that seems inadequate and a million years away. My first paycheck is in about four days, it feels further away. Feels like I’m hurting myself for nothing but self-loathing, a punishment for inadequately providing for my loved ones for years. I do my customer service game face as much as possible, but it’s a thin mask on a zombied out pile of agonized cellz. Seems to fool about 65% of people.
Thing two, being around humans means sexism, racism, misogyny, fatphobia, ableism, homophobia, and transphobia. If you’re clued into that shit, you know why anyone would want a safe place from it all. It is shot through so many of our conversations and ways of relating to each other. Like, in any work environment, you’re going to have one or more guys whose interactions with women are all creepy as hell. Maybe for whatever reason the ladies are sorta OK with it or front as such, but it doesn’t make it less grody to see a fiftyish dude smiling on young ladies over everyone else.
Then there’s like a third of all lady conversations that seem to come back to weight, with a lot of self-loathing and popular delusions and eating disorder talk. Then there’s the really disgusting fuckers – the ones with minds so full of hate they need to be shitting on someone to feel right. Some are macho men, some are ladied-out ladies, but they’re usually awash in cisheteronormativity, have to treat the existence of non-cishet people as a joke in and of itself, act like LGBTQIA people are repulsive, when it’s the brains on these creeps that are the most disgusting thing in the room.
And all this stuff is low-key and banal and common enough that I’ll look like the unreasonable terrible nogoodnik for reporting it. What could that evil liberal PC police fucker’s problem be? Does he just hate America? Hate fun? I dunno. Maybe. Our society as it now exists is fucking unacceptable. Change it please. We shouldn’t spend so much of our time hurting each other, regardless of whether or not we recognize that’s what we’re doing.
Oh, also, I saw a gaggle of young skinny white dudes with one wearing a trump hat backwards. And I didn’t even stop to crush them into bone meal. I’m really being spectacularly well behaved lately. The man should throw me a fuckin’ bone already.