I’ve been having the insomnias, and with only 2 days of sick leave in tha bank, I needed to get it under control. I’ve been doing Zzzquil and melatonin every night. Well, until last night. I was so tired, I felt like, maybe I can do this with just a lil’ help. So I only did the melatonin. I woke up at 5:30 and it took a while to sleep again.
When I finally did get to the land of nod, it was a furious mash of dream waste. Stock BS in elaborate detail. I was at some kind of christmas event in the gold-drenched lobby of a hotel that was grading into a mall. Looking for a place to sit I found some show for kids was the best spot, and took a seat there. Conscious of the possibility I’d be seen as a pedo, I avoided looking at anything but the show. I had a ziploc bag full of melty holiday cookies to eat. The show was live entertainment at first but became a montage of celebs in holiday specials. Charles Bronson was in the mix, with a grotesquely squishy face and surprisingly high singing voice.
At some point the dream switched to being about FreethoughtBlogs and the administration thereof. One of the bloggers that posts less often was on a tear. This wasn’t a real FtBer, but was something of a median persona as a middle-aged dude. He had a regular enough post about politics or computer programming or something, but randomly at the end of it and without warning, he embedded a video of himself fully naked, masturbating to completion.
Seeing a chubby middle-aged dude masturbate to completion is not a turn-off for me when I’m awake, so in the dream I was copacetic with it, the full ethical ramifications beyond my sleeping mind. I did, however, consider the possibility other people may be bothered, and wondered if I’d have to go in the back channel to reconvene an FtB ethics committee about it. I think he was starting to attract comments from people wondering what the hell he was thinking by the time the alarm got me.
Possibly something in waking life put the kernel of that dream in my mind. Who can say?