I get so much hate mail that I’ve become numb to it — I check it out in case there are grounds for amusement in it, and then automatically hit delete. Delete, delete, delete, delete…and sometimes I get lazy and just “select all” and then delete once. And then every once in a great while, I get a nice email, which mainly stirs up feelings of puzzlement. I have to stare at it and try to decipher the words, and all the while I’m wondering whether I’m being trolled or set up, or whether I’m being blasted with sarcasm. I can take the hate in stride nowadays, but pleasant email gives me a sensation akin to a stifled hiccup or sneeze, and it’s a little distressing.
I think there’s probably something wrong with my head after too many years of this. I should probably get therapy, but if I started caring what the assholes said about me it might be fatal.
Anyway, just because it’s unusual, I include the content of the message below.
This email is just to say thanks. Thanks for being one of the good atheists. This may sound strange, but maybe I can elaborate. What got me started on atheism, or at least the catalyst, was watching Richard Dawkins. Then I watched more of him and then any atheist he spoke with. This led to Harris and Hitchens and then on to youtube to Thunderfoot. These were some of the foundational elements of my awakening to atheism and being more scientific about viewing things. Then, some years ago this started to change. Dawkins, Harris, and thunderfoot (among the many other skeptics and atheists who have come to disappoint me) said many stupid things. (While I disagree with Hitchens on some things, I find his wit and the way he speaks to enticing to throw him away, what can I say he was one of my heroes) There is no need to go into detail on specifics, but their words and actions disappointed and disgusted me. Now, to back track a bit, during those exciting early days, you were there, as well. But, you were always second fiddle to those other players. Just this kooky older guy who had good things to say, I guess…
But you, you have never disappointed me or said things that I am embarrassed about. You are on the right side of things. I am sorry I did not give you enough credit way back when.
So, thanks for being awesome. For being a good person. All those others were so much dross that a light wind swept away. And underneath was this glorious, many tentacled, feminist, open minded awesomeness named PZ Myers.
Anyway, this is something I realized recently and there has been an itch to let you know this. Seriously, thank you for all that you do and for the causes you support. Please keep up the good work.
Thank you, I’ll try.
Of course, now I’m just thinking about all the ways I can fuck up. I’m thinking of all the ways I have fucked up.
I don’t need therapy, I need a pill that gives one Dunning-Krueger.