Tag Archive: life

May 08 2013

Excited, Worried, Scared Shitless: How I Feel About Moving

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As I’ve certainly mentioned here countless times already, I’m moving to New York City at the end of the summer–in just three and a half months. I’ve wanted to do this for years, and I’ve visited the city so many times while I’ve been in college that it’s long felt like a second home. Or …

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Apr 14 2013

Lessons I Learned From Depression

I am not my GPA, weight, debt, scars.

[Content note: depression] People struggling with mental illness (or any sort of illness, or anything crappy, really) are constantly exhorted by well-meaning people to find the “silver lining” in their experience. This often takes the form of tropes about “learning who your real friends are” or “learning how to fully appreciate life” or “understanding what’s …

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Jan 01 2013

Six Months

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Every New Year’s Eve, I write a post about the year that’s about to end. When I was younger, I mostly used these posts to talk about significant things that had happened to me (getting a boyfriend, losing a boyfriend, getting into this or that program or college, and so on), explain what I’d learned …

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Dec 25 2012

How It Feels To Shed Your Skin

Being a young and mobile person is a bit like having a never-ending case of whiplash. I don’t have a single identity or home or social circle; I have many, and I’m constantly leaving one for another and feeling like the skin that has been grafted onto my preexisting skin is being ripped off and …

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Dec 10 2012

“Home”

This week I learned that depression and writer’s block together is a scary thing, as writing is my primary way of alleviating depression. Then I realized that the reason I couldn’t write was because I was refusing to write the piece that was trying to come out. When I finally let myself “feel the feels,” …

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Nov 08 2012

Onset

Here’s how I got depression.

Oct 23 2012

[storytime] How I Quit the Senior Thesis

Ever since I was little, I held a belief shared by many gifted kids–gifted kids who grow into overachieving teenagers and then sleepless college students and then budding doctors, lawyers, engineers, researchers, businesspeople, or just those legions of people who wear tailored suits and work in tall office buildings in lower Manhattan and do stuff …

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Sep 02 2012

[storytime] An Abridged List of Lies I Was Taught as a Child

Money and success will make you happy. Being beautiful is an obligation. Being fat is the worst thing that could happen to you. College will be a magical la-la land where you will finally be happy. Men don’t like strong, opinionated women. Being gay is wrong. Never ask a guy out. Never have sex with …

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Aug 01 2012

Because I Am An Atheist

A few months ago, blogger Ian Cromwell wrote a post about how atheism has affected his life and titled it “Because I am an atheist.” In the comments section, others left their own “Because I am an atheist” stories. Then my friend Kate wrote her own version, and now I’ve been inspired to write mine. …

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Jul 02 2012

When I Knew It Was Over

When I was a little kid, my favorite dreams were the ones in which I got something new–a toy I’d been wanting, some really cool gadget. (Kids are acquisitive that way.) I would wake up grasping for my new possession and feeling a tremendous sense of injustice at the fact that I couldn’t keep it …

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