I will admit I am unhappy with the way I look. I am of the belief that since I am incapable of getting the things that I like to eat (Bacon, Steak, Pizza, Cheese Cake) and that I have been on a diet to get thinner for two reasons, the first being that I had a diabetes scare and was told to lose weight since diabetes and hypertension both run in my family (Now, Diabetes, Hypertension and Avicenna do all the running!) and secondly I started feeling a bit bad for my self as I felt that in the time I spent here, I may as well take advantage and drop some weight as I felt a bit unhealthy as I had stopped exercising when I came to India.
And I have to admit that being bombarded with images of svelte or incredibly muscular men is part of the reason. I lost a fair chunk of my hair aged 18 for completely unknown reasons (Seriously, my hair is falling out like crazy.) and was a bit on the chunky side. I felt ugly because 18 year olds are all (media wise) well built and have their own hair and I was very single and that kind of thought goes through your head when that happens.
And yes as I grew older I realised that it was just my perception and that if people didn’t like the way I looked then that’s their problem but frankly other kids like me exist to this day who feel insecure because the media bombards them with images of how “they should look”.
All these things are on the rise. I have seen other students out here starve themselves because they think that women won’t look at them if they don’t possess a physique that you normally see on a statue of Hercules or on the bodies of people who have a lot of time and money on their hands.
It’s a weird outlook that we would starve ourselves for beauty when ultimately most of us are beautiful in someone’s eyes. And quite frankly I don’t have the time for the gym, so I am going to have to be Avicenna – 1/3 of tall, dark and handsome (Hint the 1/3 is dark!).